Here We Go!

Surgery tomorrow.  So much of me is really not ready to talk about it, but I will say, that I had confidence that God would prepare me and He has.  I’m still numb, in shock, and utter disbelief.  How did I get here?  Is this all a bad dream cause it sure feels like it? However,  I had the first procedure today in preparation for tomorrow so it’s actually moving forward.  Dye was injected into my breast which will flow into my lymph nodes.  They will be removed and checked for pathology.  I’ve so hoped that the lymph nodes would be clear and I still am hoping.

But I had a phone call today with a precious sister who has been through this.  She talked to me about putting our hope completely in the person of Jesus Christ.  And oh how right she was!  “Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him.” Psalm 62: 5  I realized that I’ve been putting my hope in a positive outcome on tests.  As she reminded me, life is too hard to ever put our hope in any circumstance.  How many times I’ve spoken to others about the hope that doesn’t disappoint – Jesus Christ, “Now hope does not disappoint because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.” Romans 5:5.  And yet in my current trial I had become so focused on pathology tests and hoping in that.

I’m so thankful for the truth that this sister imparted to me, because it caused an immediate shift in my thinking and my perspective.  We so need to surround ourselves with the body of Christ, not just in the difficult times, but also in the good times.

I’ve always thought of myself as a strong person, but I will tell you that this current trial has revealed to me just how weak I am.  But that’s a good thing because I’ve seen the true reality that I’m totally dependent upon Jesus Christ.  When I’m weak, He is strong.  (2nd Corinthians 12:9) He is carrying me through this trial and He is my hope and my deliverer.  He is my all and all.  Truly, I am in the palm of His hand.

I thank all of my brothers and sisters for the outpouring of love, prayers, and thoughts.

Jeremiah 29:11  For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.